The Greatest Man...

"The Greatest Man", this song just tears me to shreds. Reminds me of my daddy, how he never let us know how much he and my mother worked to give us children everything we wanted. My daddy was never big on sentimental words. I remember the first time he told me he loved me, when I almost killed myself in a car wreck, and I am sure scared them to death. I was driving too fast on County Road 7 in Clay County (before we even lived there), I had only had my car a week, but of course I knew what I doing, took a curve too fast, ran up a tree, flipped the car a few times, threw my friend out of the car and I woke up upside down in the backseat. Don't remember much about the details. I remember Tami being mad because they had to cut her jeans and I remember Clay County Hospital getting us mixed up because we had the same birthday, same hospital, same day, same year, same color hair, only difference was I had blue eyes and was shorter and I remember the lady whose tree I hit, making my daddy buy her a new tree and him going off because he almost lost his daughter and I remember some kind guy, wish I knew who he was, who covered me with his jacket, Oh and someone stole my pager (because I was so cool) and it was returned to me like a year later.. ha!

I don't remember why I started this story, just one of those random moments, I started to write about. You all who know me and know the severity of all of my situations. The love my parents shown me and the things I knew nothing about are the reason I am who I am at this point. I never knew how good I had things. I never knew how much I took for granted. If I could take it all back I would but I can't, all I can do is give my children the best life God will allow me to. This is why no matter the hurt, my patience has to be strong. If only I could post a list of things "I" wanted, the truth would be shown, however I will not belittle others for my own gratification. I just trust that the lord has my life in his hands and he apparently knows I can handle a great deal, because he does not give us more than we can handle. I don't wish to be a hero or put on a pedestal or sympathized, I asked for most of what I got and as for the rest, I just want the health of my dad and grandmother to improve, I don't care what it takes.