My Dad and Chemo

The first day of chemo and radiation went well for daddy! The doctors decided to hook a pump to his port so he gets small amounts of chemo every hour constantly. He said is "isn't that bad yet". So that is great. He is so brave and I couldn't be prouder. He will continue to have radiation in Alex City 5 days a week for the next 6 to 7 weeks, and they will change out his chemo pump once a week and do maintance on the port in his neck. I know it will be hectic and stressful for him and my mother, making the daily trips and going through the therapy while also taking care of my grandmother and her therapy but anything that will keep them here with us longer is worth it. Nothing worth having is easy. I am just so happy that he is in such high spirits and his doctors are so caring. He has 3 doctors and together they make the treatment plans and this is what they as a group decided on. So 1 day down , many more to go! Thanks again for all the constant support and concern!Love,Karen

Heaven let your light shine down

I went to my dad's follow up appointment today, well most of our crew did, those of us who know us personally know we don't do things alone. So I was the note taker/ question asker because my mom didn't want to miss anything, and I watched the doctors face as he began to speak and I grabbed Sarah's hand. He told us that they did find cancer in his lymph nodes and in order for there to be a decent survival rate they would have to have removed at least 13 nodes.. my dad's surgeon removed 19!!!!!! I felt myself begin to grin from ear to ear.. AND only 1 of the 19 had cancerous cells! They have now given him a 70-80% chance of survival! We could not be more pleased! He will go and have a port put in his neck for his months of treatments, AND NOOOO radiation, the chemo should be able to wipe this out! See what a fighter my daddy is! The only thing that could stop him now is a reoccurrence of the cancer in which case his doctor said, there would be not much else he could do BUT our family is happy and thankful and blessed. I called tonight to see if they made it home and after all these weeks of no sleep... my dad was asleep, finally able to rest.. so port will be put in next week and chemo will start soon there after and in the meantime he wants to go back to work!!! So that is my update, someone definitely was shining down on us and what a miracle to go from such a grim prognoses to this!

December Life

For the most part, this month has been alot to deal with and even through it all it is amazing to see all of the good things and blessings happening at the same time! Don't get me wrong, all of the events of this month have been devastating and I have taken it pretty hard and life is stressful BUT at the same time there is good out there and beauty, I love the look in my children's eyes as they get so excited about Christmas, I love the innocence they have about life, Those smiles are so beautiful to me, I am thankful that I am still employed at this difficult time in the economy, to have a roof over our heads and to have 1 more day with my family, however bad, thinking of these things always makes me smile. Tyler, in response to the awesome December threats of "Tyler, Santa is watching you and you will not get anything if you are bad", He looked and me, thought for a second and responded. "Well when I hear Santa come in the house, because he is bringing Belle something I will go downstairs and have a talk with him and then he will give me something". I could only stare and shake my head, things like this are great!
Several of you have asked about my daddy, he has an appointment Monday which is his follow up from surgery, right now he has good days and bad ones, the past couple of days he has spiked a fever and broke out into hives?. So he is either having a reaction to something or has an infection, which we all know is not good news, but I am impressed with how much of a fighter he is, and this time he didn't wait, when he started feeling sick, he was ready to go to the doctor.
Sarah and I have decided to fight the war against cancer and help cancer patients and their familes. We recieved our first call tonight and we will help a lady, whose family we know but live out of state and they have to return home for work. Basically we will make sure she eats and help with the cleaning and such, we have a meeting next week! We are so happy to be able to help, it is almost like we have entered a club, one that no one wants to be in but everyone has a different outlook on life here! It is like there is never enough that you can do and if I can touch one person or help one person during this time then it would be worth it, I hope and pray that if for some reason I was unable to get to my father and he needed help someone would help him, THIS is why I do what I do, you have to think, these people could be your mother or your father, which is why my heart is so soft when it comes to the elderly but that is another blog completely. Anyway I encourage any of you to find a cause you can be passionate about where there are other people in need of help and get out there, there is no better feeling in this world than being the reason someone has a smile on thier face, my weakness is, I care too much, It is a fight we can either fight with them or stand by and watch, either way it could be you, and would you want someone to just watch as you hurt?
My MawMaw also has gotten worse she is going back to heart doctor tommorrow and will also probably be admitted. She however also is a fighter and I am just not ready to say good bye to either of them, so I am in hopes that they both can pull through this, I know daddy wants to be there for MawMaw and she for him, I have no idea how bad they feel being sick and your mother/son being sick also. My mother is who I am most worried about because SHE is the one going back and forth the doctors, making sure everyone gets fed and medication is passed out.. etc... whew all I know is this December has been awful and stressful BUT it has also made me more thankful than ever.
** On another note all of the cards and everything my dad has recieved lifts his spirits so much, I have shared all of the comments and well wishes and I promise he was so touched that so many people cared it was precious! It has been qute an eye opener to see who cared and who just read along. You truely find out who your friends are! For that I thank you.. YOU are awesome!**
I am sure this is completely random and out of order but just wanted to update with you guys! Hope everyone is having a great day and is getting excited for Christmas!
Love-
Karen

Circus part2

I am so confused, how can 1 person be so happy and yet so sad at the same time? How is it possible to feel so many emotions at the same time? Many people asked about a statement I made in a blog about my daddy about someone making a comment about it not being true, that person was a pharmacist, an adult, a person I had only worked with 1 time prior to this day, a simple fill in pharmacist, and she decided that the idea of my father having cancer was absured and MUST be a lie, she told everyone before I had a chance to about this "lie" I was telling. If only it were a lie, if only it were an excuse to leave work then that would mean that everything would now be OK and my daddy would not be dying. I am not saying that his illness is any less tragic than anyone elses parents because anyone trying to take this in must hurt. If I could take it all away I would. Why do I feel guilty? Because my father is a good man, no he is a great man that so does not deserve this. He is the kindest, most reserved and respective person I have ever met. He spent his adult life as a teacher, not because he wanted to but because his parents thought that was the best career for him and he didn't want to dissapoint them, which ultimately made him decide to never tell us what would be the best future choices for us his own children. What reward did he get from all of those years of teaching? Nothing.. he was miserable, he was treated like crap, just because he was so timid and kind hearted he was run over by students and staff, if you think this doesn't break my heart it does, these are all things held deep inside like I said previously and now I am choosing to express. Was it fun? Was it fun to be mean to teachers you thought you could? Was it worth it? What if it were your parent? What if your parent was the one you hear stories about all of the mean things kids did to him, would it be funny then? Is it so funny to know you wore him down, it was so much fun to make him mad, to take advantage, good for you, I hope Karma pays you a visit and something just as funny happens to you and the world laughs while you are miserable, like he did.. laugh it up... So he taught until he could not take it anymore, he made my senior year in high school his final year of teaching, which was more than a load lifted off of his shoulders. He then got a job with the US Postal service and for the first time ever he LOVED his job, he loved meeting all of the people at the post offices he filled in, but there was one... who thought it best to make him feel beneath him. Why? Because he was an easy target? Is that why? What could you possibly get from constantly hurting another person, he already has a complex about being a push over and he shouldn't, being nice is not a bad thing, some people just feel powerful by hurting others. I never knew any of these things until a few years ago, because he never wanted his hurt show. I just pray he knows in the depths of his heart how much he means to me, and I don't think he is a push over, I think he is wonderful, he is my daddy and would not pick another for that title if I could. Now he is faced with cancer and why? Again was he an easy target? Why not get me? Then at least it would be a bit more justified? I was the "bad" child, the black sheep if you will, I made all the wrong choices, I was loud and unruley unlike my parents who were so quiet, shy and reserved. I made them worry, I am the reason he worked a job he could not stand, it was to give me all the things I "HAD" to have, I am the one who wrecked all the cars and he even though I did not deserve it replaced them and he no matter what I did still stood by me, replacing what I broke, helping me out of everything I got my self in too and now he needs help and there is NOTHING I can do. I am just pissed there is nothing I can do to fix this. I just do not get the justification. Whatever happened to things being simple? I don't want sympathy or whatever.. I just want this fixed.. everything fixed.How did life get so complicated? Your best friends are more like family and somehow love you even when you are having a crazy blogging moment where you decide it is a good idea to spill your guts to the world or a small group of people. Oh lord. The people you used to know are not the ones you ever knew at all, everything changes and things stay the same at the same time

My circus

So I had these big plans to have like word vomit and spew my guts in this blog (refreshing choice of words I know) .. BUT I think I will wait.. At least now I have a starting point, to work from as I can.
I had this as a bulletin but then thought better about sharing so much with my adoring fans, I am sure to get tongues wagging!
10 things you may not have known about me until this countdown and if you did you must know me pretty well!
Hold on to your seats folks cause here I go......
1. I lived in Clay County (Cragford) but I didn't go to school in Ashland or Lineville, instead I went to Talladega, were I lived until I was 13ish, and my family moved to the CC but I have went to more Lineville football games than Talladega by FAR, thanks to my brother and sister who DID go to Lineville High and DID live in the same house with me, with the same parents, just went to schools in different counties.(Confused yet?)
2. I COMPLETELY repulsed by rodents.. all of them make me shudder, just going down the isle with the mouse traps, seeing the pictures make me cringe.
3. I think sushi is disusting, no matter what you say, it is raw fish.. and I do not want any of it and no I haven't tried it, I saw it and that was enough.
4. Before my 20th birthday I had been married and divorced to one of those Clay County boys who had my heart and his better interests in mind, I also moved to Anniston to live by myself to get away from "everything", which in keeping with my "plans", did not happened, I somehow ended up pregnant, which changed my life FOREVER, for the better, nothing can ever impact your life, like a child, and no matter what so help me, I will do ANYTHING to do right by them.
5. I still sleep with the same bear I have had for over 10 years because my MawMaw gave him to me the Christmas my house burned and my family lost everything but each other.
6. I find myself overcome with guilt over everything, things I can't change, things I can, I think it is a curse.
7. I adore the month of October, I love the weather, how it feels, how it smells and knowing the holidays are coming up.
8. I love my family more than anything in this world, I didn't always know how much I did, until reality slapped me in the face and then it hurt I felt it so bad.
9. When I was growing up I had my entire life planned out. It didn't go as planned.
10. I apparently can NOT make a right decision until I have tried ALL of the wrong ones. I can not believe I revealed so much in this list.I think I should close now before I tell something else I may regret! :-)
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Dear Auhsoj,Lately I have been having a hard time dealing, with life in general. Then when I think about dealing with things I feel so selfish because I know there are so many others who have lives that are so much worse than my own. In my mind however being dramatic it may seem it is all tragic. The blogs I place on prefered only will be labeled so at the top, that means these are my private thoughts and my way of creating a therapy for myself. It is more of a diary pursae, which is why there are only a few I am allowing to read my diary. I think I will write my own autobiography and if for no other reason than to share and let others know that it is ok to feel certain ways and that everyone makes mistakes and sometimes those mistakes you think you make are not that at all but part of a bigger well drawn out plan, I really am just rambling throwing around ideas that will better fit my needs. So for the first time in my entire life, I am going to lay it all out there, tell my story and maybe get rid of this permanant lump that seems to be lodged in my throat. Life is a funny thing, once you get used to it, it changes, I guess to see if you can keep up. I know that the guilt literally eats at me because my father has cancer and I chose to move up here because I thought I could run away from my heartaches, if only I knew another ache would replace that one that would make me want to be closer to "home". I feel guilty about a number of things, I am the oldest child, I should be the one taking care of things but no, I am the only child that can not drop everything and be there when needed. Oh how it feels to be pulled in a million different directions. You have an obligation to work, which in turn pays your bills, you also have an obligation to your family. Anyway this is my starting point, I do hope everyone enjoys the read and the next will be better laid out.

My daddy update 4 Current mood: numb Category: Life
I visited him today, he looked so weak and nervous, we were only able to stay a few minutes, because he was hurting and having people there was making him more nervous. He won't eat anything and his blood pressure has been dropping they may have to give him a blood transfusion tonight to help some of the problems. I hate so much to see him like this and in pain. They were able to get him to walk a little today, he walked down the hall, so that is good. I can not shake this sick feeling in my stomach, I just want everything to go back to normal and my daddy to be fine, but it is looking like in reality, that may not happen. I know everyday will be a struggle, but everyday will always be a blessing. It's just so hard for this to sink in, like how can this be real? This was not even a worry last week and this week, in a week alone, our lives have been turn upside down. I am not even sure HOW to feel, there are just so many emotions. The only thing I am sure of is I am not ready to lose him and I will do ANYTHING to make things better for him.

Finally Good News Category: Life
Today was much brighter. Much to the surprise of everyone who saw my daddy yesterday, this morning when he woke up, his appetite returned, he ate his breakfast and his lunch, his blood pressure stabilized, when meant no transfusion, he also had his drains removed and walked alot more. The best part was, since he was doing so well today, they let him go home late tonight to rest, since he had been through so much. I couldn't be happier! He will rest and take medications for 3 weeks, then return to the cancer center to schedule chemo and radiation. This whole ordeal has been an unbelieveable roller coaster, of ups and downs, going from scared to worried, to mad, to devastated, to happy about every positive thing happening! All I know is this: He was not expected to make it through surgery- HE DID, He was expected to have a transfusion- HE DIDN'T, He was thought to need to be in the hospital for a while to recover- HE ISN'T, Now I can't help but think that maybe just maybe he can beat this thing even if the doctors don't think he can, after all he has surpassed all of their expecatations this far. He is far from out of the woods, he is still very sick, weak and in pain and I do know the prognoses is still very grim, but I still have the hope! I can not express the thanks I have for my friends and people in my life who stepped up and showed concern for me and my family in this terrible time. I will continue to update through my blogs and I hope that each one will reveal another step towards remission, the doctors say that is not a likely outcome, but we will see!
Love,
Karen

My dad/ Hulk Smash

Daddy- The Surgery/ Hulk Smash Current mood: thankful
So first things first, My daddy made it through surgery!!! I am so happy about that fact alone, I can not explain the sigh of relief. They were able to remove all of the tumor. It was attached to his colon and his abdominal wall and intestines (the doctor made us some awesome pictures of before, after and during). He lost all of his colon and the inside of his abdominal wall was caterized, and 8 inches of intestines was removed, as far as eating/digesting he should have no problem after a few weeks, but that unfortunatly is where the good news ends. The cancer had spread to his lymph nodes, which means it has a more proabability of reproducing, long story short, with it at this stage and as much damage that has been done, with chemo, he was given 1 year to be with us. I know it could be much worse and I am thankful for everyday that he is in my life. He was my inspiration for years as well as a person I will always look up too. My daddy is the kindest, most generous person I have ever met and he (not that anyone does) doesn't deserve this. I am thankful that I got to hug my daddy tonight and tell him I love him. He was not expected to make it out of that operating room, so I call that number 1 on a long list of predictions he will prove wrong. He was more worried about everyone else than himself, which shows how big his heart is. He was apologizing for being so much trouble. We have a hard road ahead but we will take it day by day and cherish everyone like it is the last.
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NOW, moving along.
1. I want sympathy from no one, so no this is not a cry for attention, I think I could come up with something better than this, if attention was what I wanted and I NEVER NEVER would bring my daddy or anyone in my family into it.
2. I did not make this up, however bizarre it may sound to you it all happening so fast. I promise I wish it weren't real. Please ask my mother if her watching her husband of 28 years fight for his life, if that is a lie or a sympathy vote, I bet then you may get the message. I do promise, anyone who said this was a lie, I am sorry but there is a special place for you in hell and I hope you enjoy it there. Just wait karma.. will catch up with you. And yes I am mad, upset and bitter, sorry I didnt want this to happen and I am dealing the best way I know how.
3. I have learned that I can snap in 0.2 seconds, much like the hulk when someone questions the health of my father, its not funny, its not cute and all I want is for my father to live.. just to have him with me, I would not lie about this, that is sick. And if you think I will not snap, I can think of at least 5 or 6 people who witnessed the events of today and no I am not sorry. I can only pray for the ones I did not get a hold of today because this WILL be dealt with, and not over the phone.
4. If you do not care about me or my family, don't read these blogs, better yet, you can delete me from your "friends" list. THIS is no time for childishness, it may just be another "poor cancer patient", but not to me, he his my daddy and to me right now that makes him the most important cancer patient.
OK this was my vent for the night. I have spent most of it crying, yelling or holding one of the 2 back. I can not believe how insensitive and cruel people can be. I can only trust, one day they will see the error in their ways. Have a great night!
Love,
Karen

My dad Update

My daddy .. Update 2
I just got home from the hospital, he is in pain and very nauseated. He found out from the doctor today that the cancer is Stage 3 and is in his colon, intestines and stomach, they are not sure until tommorrow if it is also attached to his liver. He will lose 8 inches of his colon tommorrow and a layer of his stomach and the doctor told him to prepare and for us to prepare for the fact that the surgery may be too much for his body to handle and there is a great chance that he may not survive the surgery tommorrow. After surgery he should recover for a few days and then start Chemo for 6 months. Aparently this cancer has been growing for 5 years or so and he just presented no symptoms until the pain was to much to handle. Most stories I hear about someone having cancer, this process takes time and you have a little bit of time to digest the news or the situation, however in this case, we in the last 3 days learned that our father was sick, it may be cancer, then it was definatly cancer, then stage 3 cancer at that, and on top of that he may not make it through tommorrow? It is just alot to take in.I do appreciate all the kind messages, comments and texts.To answer some questions:Am I Ok? No not at all, but that is fine, I will cope.Do I want info about cancer? Nope, I know all I need to know, it has been killing my precious father silently, and I am bitter about it.Where is he having surgery? He is having surgery in Alex City at Russell Medical, he is in room 286 , surgery will be sometime between 10 and 1, he is the last surgery of the day because it will take so long and he will also have Chemo there in the cancer center.Is there anything you can do? No, not unless you can make this whole thing go away, but I do so appreciate those who have cared it means alot to see those who have taken time away from thier own life to check in on mine and at a time like this you need support more than anything.My head feels like it may explode as soon as the room stops spinning. I am so sick of bad news, I am really ready for some good news. I know to never take a thing for granted in this life.You know I took a survey on Monday, that asked a question, about if I would like to live the night before over and over and I foolishly said no, because nothing special happened, I was wrong, and these words have haunted me since I heard the news. I would LOVE to go back to Monday and live there for the rest of my life, nothing special happening was a beautiful thing.

My dad

Yesterday my daddy was diagnosed with cancer. Today he was admitted to the hospital, and they found it was in fact cancerous and worse than they originally thought. Tommorrow he will undergo surgery to remove the tumor, which will be dangerous. Then Chemo. This has been a bad year for our family, with my grandmother's heart failure, my other grandmother dying and now my father has cancer. I in no way want anyone's sympathy, the ONLY thing I want is my daddy, and for my daddy to be alive and well. With that being said, I am going to drive to hospital right now, to kiss my daddy goodnight and if you can tell your daddies you love them ,because I PROMISE this pain is nothing I would wish on anyone.

Cancer and The Economy

(For the people just reading my "diary" blogs, Auhsoj, is my diaries name. :-) Well I had to write dear somebody, It is pronounced Aww-Soj, and this story too shall be revealed in time)
Here is a timeline of my last few weeks.
November 19, 2008 Dad went to doctor for belly pain, sent for CT
November 20, 2008 Colonoscopy revealed the worst.. cancer
November 21, 2008 Surgery to remove cancer, hardest day to live with. Both mentally , emotionally, not to mention the criticism of others.
November 27, 2008 Thanksgiving, no one wanted to celebrate due to daddy's illness.
December 5, 2008 Husband Laid off from work, meaning I know have the sole responsibility of paying the bills and still hold it all together for us all. (Thanks economy, go buy some platnium.. really :-))
December 19, 2008 Grandmother falls from stairs to concrete, put in NeuroICU in Birmingham, with suspected brain bleed
December 23, 2008 My employer annouced that because of the number of prescriptions I was able to transfer our store would recieve a bonus... exciting right.. wrong.. there was a corporate mixup and the front end employees NOT the pharmacy personel who did this work got bonuses, we recieved NOTHING, a slap in the face would have felt nicer. We did get to see the excitement they had spending the money, 2 days before Christmas. Still to this day no correction has been made.
December 24, 2008 Sarah's Birthday
December 25, 2008 Merry Christmas (MawMaw still in ICU)
December 30, 2008 Maw-Maw released from hospital under orders she can not return home until released by a doctor. So she moved in with my parents and home health and physical therapy make home visits.
January 1, 2009 New Years
January 19, 2009 Belle's 2nd Birthday
January 19, 2009 Daddy's First Day of Chemo/ Radiation And somewhere in between all of this my child, my precious baby boy, has become, "The bad child", and ohhh that one hurts, I am at whits ends, hoping it is a faze, it is so embarrasing.

*Disclaimer: I DO NOT want a soul to feel "sorry" for me, this is however my life and I am the one who has to deal with it. This merely is a vent and I added dates for my own time line, I am sure there is some information some of you didn't know about but there it is, in black in white. It is what it is and what it is sucks BUT this is just another of lifes trials. This too shall pass, and I am a happy person and feel selfish for feeling down, so the last thing I want is someones sympathy or to be treated different or to be "sheltered" from other bad news or for someone to feel like they can not come to me because I have enough to deal with, my friends I love dearly and it would hurt me more to know you didn't come to me. I am sure it will never be too much. Just need a nap. Add all of the above to being a parent working over full time at a thankless job and come home to all of the mommy chores.. it will all work out. What is meant to be finds its way.*
Want to know what all this feels like.. read the lyrics to this song! Pretty Much Sums it all up in one song! Lyrics sometimes have an amazing way of comforting you, knowing there must be someone else who at one time felt this way and then wrote a song about it! Fortunatly it is all becoming comedic as I try to try hard to stop the cynical thoughts. And now as I stand facing the world, I scream, "Hit me with your best shot, I can handle it". (I hope) :-))
.."Welcome To My Life"Do you ever feel like breaking down?Do you ever feel out of place?Like somehow you just don't belongAnd no one understands youDo you ever wanna run away?Do you lock yourself in your room?With the radio on turned up so loud That no one hears you screamingNo you don't know what it's likeWhen nothing feels all rightYou don't know what it's likeTo be like meTo be hurtTo feel lostTo be left out in the darkTo be kicked when you're downTo feel like you've been pushed aroundTo be on the edge of breaking downAnd no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's likeWelcome to my lifeDo you wanna be somebody else?Are you sick of feeling so left out?Are you desperate to find something more?Before your life is overAre you stuck inside a world you hate?Are you sick of everyone around?With their big fake smiles and stupid liesWhile deep inside you're bleedingNo you don't know what it's likeWhen nothing feels all rightYou don't know what it's likeTo be like meTo be hurtTo feel lostTo be left out in the darkTo be kicked when you're downTo feel like you've been pushed aroundTo be on the edge of breaking downAnd no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's likeWelcome to my lifeNo one ever lied straight to your faceAnd no one ever stabbed you in the backYou might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okayEverybody always gave you what you wantedYou never had to work it was always thereYou don't know what it's like, what it's likeTo be hurtTo feel lostTo be left out in the darkTo be kicked when you're downTo feel like you've been pushed aroundTo be on the edge of breaking downAnd no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)To be hurtTo feel lostTo be left out in the darkTo be kicked when you're downTo feel like you've been pushed aroundTo be on the edge of breaking downAnd no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's likeWelcome to my lifeWelcome to my lifeWelcome to my life I do love you all dearly and appreciate you reading my blogs and for all of the comments and sharing stories!

Some Truth..

They say the truth may set you free... Here is some truth for you! Current mood: breezy
First of all I learned to put my blog to my "preferred" readers only. So if you can read this... you made the list! :-)
Here is a list of things that right now at this moment are driving me insane, a numerical vent if you will!
S.D. I know you are shaking your head at my grammar and spelling errors, give me a break I am a woman scorned or something like that!
So here we go:
1. How is it possible to be almost 30 have children... who themselves are in school and still talk like you are in highschool! Give the drama back to the teenagers. Soem people change, some do not, those who are meant to be in your life are there, and the really great people you have hold on to them. The ones who bring you to the point where you act like a 12 year old, who needs them... Enough said.
2. Why do some people pride themselves on belittleing others. I have saw in the last month the worst example of that. Why would someone with a 6 year degree, and a "perfect" life of thier own feel better, by making a single mother, who is out there actually working her butt off feel like crap. If you really get cheap kicks out of making people feel like shit, go out there and lecture these people who keep making kids that they do not want or support. No one has any problems taking money out of my paycheck to pay for these people to sit at home and draw a check for welfare, food stamps, government phone and free healthcare. I think any ABLE BODIED person who can work, should to support thier familes and those that are actually trying should not be belittled!
3. WHY WHY WHY... does every meth manufacurer in Calhoun County come to buy Pseudophedrine from me and why why why do they pretend they are so sick and have never bought it before when the log is in ABC order, I can see you bought 3 days ago. If our law enforcement wants to crack down on this problem, then why is it still so easy for these people to get the ingredients they need to ruin thier lives, which in turn eventually gets them arrested and "bless thier hearts" gets sent to rehab, non off which they can pay for, which I am sure comes some how out of my paycheck... the person who by her company is required to keep this product on the shelf.
4. Oh and here is a hint... posting blogs and comments, and status updates about how wonderful your life and marriage are, does not convince me. I'm not sure who you are trying to convince, the world or yourself. So here is my statement, My husband and I fight like crazy! I love that man with all my heart, but no one makes me madder and there I declared it on myspace.
5. Who sets the mold for what is normal anyway? I seem to think that everyone including myself is a little crazy.
Well 5 is enough for today! Feel Free to give your input and thanks for reading!!
Love,
Karen

Will You be My Emergency Contact?

Will You Be My Emergency Contact? Current mood: animated Category: Life
Ahh life is full of good stuff and never ceases to amaze or make you shake your head in disbelief.
-Ever notice how no matter what you fill out there is always a place for your EMERGENCY contact. Ok seriously if I am at the hospital already, my emergency contact is already there more than likely. I guess in the event that I pass out at Wal-Mart, the employees will initiate the emergency contact search and call around and find out who I am and who I would like contacted in the event of an emergency. What the little line actually means is, in the event you do not pay your bill, we establish a state of emergency and will then contact your designated person to get them to get you to pay. So why not save some time and on the forms write "Who can we contact when your broke butt can't pay your bill?" I am thinking of changing my emergency contact at every place I go, maybe start in the phone book at A and work my way towards Z and in the event I can't pay my bills, everyone in this county will know not who I am but they will definatly know my name! Unfortunatly I do pay my bills so I guess I will never get to test my theories... dang it!
- It has been brought to my attention by a friend of mine that I have gained weight since highschool. Really.. I had no idea, how sweet of you to notice. Now this comment was not made out of concern for my health but because the extra weight did not look good in her terms of what was pretty and what she needed beside her. Wow and I was just thinking of how HOT my extra weight was, thank goodness you stepped in and let me know. My thoughts are this, yes, I did gain weight, I did go through a rough time and my body did suffer. Am I proud of this, of course not, is this something I am working on, it certainly is but not for anyone else but myself. My husband has told me numerous times that he thinks I am beautiful no matter what, which means the world to me and my best friends love me for who I am. We should seek out our own flaws before we start trying to "fix" others, I have something you know nothing about tact, and personality. My friends may not be perfect, but to me they are gorgeous and I love each of them dearly and would never think of picking them apart to better accomodate myself. We are all different, that is what makes us special, embrace that.
- Now I do have a sense of sarcasm and make jokes but the few things I am passionate about I don't mind expressing in blogs and for the most part I am serious with what I am saying. My family and friends mean the world to me. My job may be stressful, but it pays the bills and I am very driven to make sure everyone gets their medications and help when they need it. People have asked me, why am I still at my store when our clients are so bad, truth is, I am addicted, they know me and I them, we for the most part have an understanding and they know I will do everything in my power to help them. That being said would I leave for a better opportunity, yes sir, and I am always looking but it will have to be something that I consider perfect for me and my family before I will move on.
-Hope this blog has made you laugh or think or both and I hope everyone has a great week. Until next time this has been another Karen original!
Love,
K

Confessions of a legal drug dealer..

Confessions of a Legal Drug Dealer Category: Blogging
So I by day lead our pharmacy and the thing you see and deal with on a daily basis are NOT by any means easy.
1. We of course have the pseudoephedrine problem, my thought is, IF the DEA and task force know that these sales are mainly to make methamphetamines, why are we required to sell it? Would it not be easier to add a harder step in order to obtain this drug needed to make meth? Why not return it to a prescription only drug? Or have some sort of counseling required to buy it. Of course we have to ID each person buying the medication and write the sale in a book for the DEA but all the people who are buying it for drug use do is obtaion alternate IDs when they have reached thier max, making it harder for the people who really need the drugs to get them.
2. In our pharmacy, it is placed in a part of town where our customers need more attention than most. However it is harder for new employees to understand and much harder to train them, which in turn causes mistakes that are hard to explain to people who have no knowledge of what is going on behind the counter.
3. There is more to filling a script than just pouring pills into a bottle. We have to scan each prescription in, input the drug and directions, pull the drug and physically count each pill, label a bottle, bill insurance, and pass it to a pharmacist to check. That is a perfect fill, which happens only every other fill.
4. I can not change you co-pay, I send an electronic claim to insurance and they send me how much to charge you, so no matter how loud you yell, I can not change that. I can however try to find you a better price, via price matches and discount cards, none of which I would want to do when you stand there yelling about things I can not help.
5. It is not my resposibility to KNOW you ran out of medication, when you see you are getting low, call us, don't wait until 8:45 to let us know you are out and going to die and expect us to drop everything, because you waited until the last second. We will do everything in our power to help you, so please bear with us and try to be kind.
6. I can not help nor can I explain why someone else made a mistake, all I can do is correct it and apologize, screaming, yelling , calling me stupid or racist, will not make anything better. My advice, keep your blood pressure down and let me help you.
7. Some insurances suck, I can not help that, I can however suggest a new plan that may work better for you or try to obtain a PA that can help you get your meds.
8. We do have new people and although it is not rocket science it is our job to make sure you get the right dose and the right medication and you have the right directions, so with all of the codes, and drugs, and different insurances, the training process takes a longer time.
9. I am proud of my job because I know I am able to help so many people everyday and that is the most fulfilling part of my job. When a persons meds cost 500 dollars and I can get it covered by a PA with a 20 dollar co-pay.
10. My lesson being, until you have been in this setting, try to be more understanding to what goes on behind the scences. I promise as long as I can I will help you in anyway possible.

Confessions of a legal drug dealer..

Confessions of a Legal Drug Dealer Category: Blogging
So I by day lead our pharmacy and the thing you see and deal with on a daily basis are NOT by any means easy.
1. We of course have the pseudoephedrine problem, my thought is, IF the DEA and task force know that these sales are mainly to make methamphetamines, why are we required to sell it? Would it not be easier to add a harder step in order to obtain this drug needed to make meth? Why not return it to a prescription only drug? Or have some sort of counseling required to buy it. Of course we have to ID each person buying the medication and write the sale in a book for the DEA but all the people who are buying it for drug use do is obtaion alternate IDs when they have reached thier max, making it harder for the people who really need the drugs to get them.
2. In our pharmacy, it is placed in a part of town where our customers need more attention than most. However it is harder for new employees to understand and much harder to train them, which in turn causes mistakes that are hard to explain to people who have no knowledge of what is going on behind the counter.
3. There is more to filling a script than just pouring pills into a bottle. We have to scan each prescription in, input the drug and directions, pull the drug and physically count each pill, label a bottle, bill insurance, and pass it to a pharmacist to check. That is a perfect fill, which happens only every other fill.
4. I can not change you co-pay, I send an electronic claim to insurance and they send me how much to charge you, so no matter how loud you yell, I can not change that. I can however try to find you a better price, via price matches and discount cards, none of which I would want to do when you stand there yelling about things I can not help.
5. It is not my resposibility to KNOW you ran out of medication, when you see you are getting low, call us, don't wait until 8:45 to let us know you are out and going to die and expect us to drop everything, because you waited until the last second. We will do everything in our power to help you, so please bear with us and try to be kind.
6. I can not help nor can I explain why someone else made a mistake, all I can do is correct it and apologize, screaming, yelling , calling me stupid or racist, will not make anything better. My advice, keep your blood pressure down and let me help you.
7. Some insurances suck, I can not help that, I can however suggest a new plan that may work better for you or try to obtain a PA that can help you get your meds.
8. We do have new people and although it is not rocket science it is our job to make sure you get the right dose and the right medication and you have the right directions, so with all of the codes, and drugs, and different insurances, the training process takes a longer time.
9. I am proud of my job because I know I am able to help so many people everyday and that is the most fulfilling part of my job. When a persons meds cost 500 dollars and I can get it covered by a PA with a 20 dollar co-pay.
10. My lesson being, until you have been in this setting, try to be more understanding to what goes on behind the scences. I promise as long as I can I will help you in anyway possible.

Belle's Montage

Tyler's Montage

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When Calling Directory Assistance..

1. I did NOT put the call center in Alabama, I only chose to work at a call center in Alabama to help you in directing your calls, SO bitching at me from NewYork or California will not make the call center move.
2. No!! I do NOT know the name of the store on the corner of Broadway and 11th street . (Remember I am in Alabama) (see 1)
3. Yelling into the automated system does not get you any faster service or get your point across any clearer. The only thing you accomplish is hurting my ears.
4. Cursing, Singing, Laughing, Whispering and all the other "cool" stuff people say and do while the automation is playing, can be heard by the operator. You do not sound cool or macho, only annoying and slightly ignorant.
5. I am NOT a freaking psychic therefore I can not read your mind. However I am a directory assistance operator so maybe we can find a psychic in your town and they can tell you what it is you need!
6. I am sorry you can not spell the name of the city you live in, but honestly if you live there and can not spell it, do you really expect me to? And yelling at me because you do not know the name of the town OR the business you are looking for doesn't help anything. (See 5)
7. I did not make the database or add or remove any numbers. I can only search the database using the information YOU provide. If you feel a number is missing or wrong.. call the phone company, after all they are the ones who list the numbers not the operator.
8. Yelling OPERATOR will not get you to an operator any faster. So just calm down and one will be with you shortly. (and will be a lot happier if you have not busted her ear drum by yelling operator 20x's)
9. If you have a phonebook... uhmm USE IT. Yelling "I'll just check the phone book" does not in anyway hurt me only makes you look lazy for not looking there first. (If its not in directory assistance.. its not in the phonebook)
10. I LOVE my job and only a handful of the hundreds of people I talk to daily are rude and it is those hundreds that are nice, patient and sensible that make my job fun and worthwhile!
THANKS TO EVERYONE THAT ARE NICE TO OTHERS EVEN WHEN THEY CAN NOT SEE THEM OR HAVE TO BE POLITE! IT IS PEOPLE LIKE YOU WHO MAKE A DIFFERENCE!
Rant over! Moral being.. be nice, you never know who is on the other end of the the phone and operators can only work with what they are given! :-)
Love,
Karen

Motherhood.. My translation

Ahh motherhood.... having a cute baby to carry around and have people aww over, yeah that's part of it but here is the rest.Being a mother means many things:*Injured toes and feet from tripping over those little cars.*Being Puked, Peed and Pooped On sometimes repeatedly.*Saying Goodnight at least 300 times because someone needs, something to drink, eat or any other of the million excuses to get back up. *Finding your favorite perfume/body spray bottle empty and you can only wonder where the contents have gone.*Screaming and/or crying with no notice*Having to say I can not believe you put that in the toilet, or where did you find that permanant marker and WHY did you color your face.* When they cock an attitude and it takes everything to keep from smiling because you KNOW that attitude was genetic.*Hearing those little feet come running and a little blonde head pop around the corner to climb into bed with you because he is scared. *Or having someone else want to hold him and he yells I want my mommy. * The feeling of contentness when holding your child and looking in their eyes and can see part of yourself. * Watching your baby sleep, knowing you are gonna protect this little life with everything in you.* The sweetest kisses and hugs. Any girl can have a baby BUT it takes a real woman to become a mother! Being a mother is not for whimps or those easy to give up cause it's not always easy but it worth EVERY second! Having children puts everything in a totally new perspective and I can not imagine my life without my 2 angels.

Facts

*There will probably be repeats since I have been tagged before* 1. I love the sound of a box fan2. I wash my dishes by hand before I put them in the dishwasher (and I hate doing dishes.3. I love having my eyebrows waxed4. I am allergic to bad spelling (not typos) but people who write things to be read by many and misspell every other word ex. pregnate,5. I LOVE to drive and drive fast but I have terrible road rage.6. I am scared of the quiet and I get paraniod easily7. I prefer to be cold rather than hot8. I change clothes as soon from a day out9. I love to shop10. My family and friends me the absolute world to me and I love them all very much. You realize how much they mean to you when they support you through good times and most importantly the bad. The ones that care matter and the ones that don't care don't matter.

As I have matured

As I have matured Current mood: cranky
As I've Matured...
I seem to keep getting older..
I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in...
I've learned that one good turn gets most of the blankets.
I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people are just jackasses.
I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it.
I've learned that whatever hits the fan will not be evenly distributed.
I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to others - they are more screwed up than you think.
I've learned that depression is merely anger without enthusiasm.
I've learned that it is not what you wear; it is how you take it off.
I've learned that you can keep vomiting long after you think you're finished.
I've learned to not sweat the petty things, and not pet the sweaty things.
I've learned that ex's are like fungus, and keep coming back.
I've learned age is a very high price to pay for maturity.
I've learned that I don't suffer from insanity, I enjoy it.
I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, unless we are celebrities.
I've learned that artificial intelligence is no match for natural stupidity.
I've learned that 99% of the time when something isn't working in your house, one of your kids did it
I've learned that there is a fine line between genius and insanity.
I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon and all the less important ones just never go away. And the real pains in the ass are permanent.

Fire Proof

My husband and I watched and enjoyed this movie. Did not know what we were in for but learned some good lessons and I want to pass this on to all of my married friends!
Love-
Karen

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Too many marriages end when someone says "I've fallen out of love with you" or "I don't love you anymore." In reality, such statements reveal a lack of understanding about the fundamental nature of true love

Unconditional love is eagerly promised at weddings, but rarely practiced in real life. As a result, romantic hopes are often replaced with disappointment in the home, but it doesn't have to stay that way.

The Love Dare, as featured in the new movie Fireproof, is a 40-day challenge for husbands and wives to understand and practice unconditional love. Whether your marriage is hanging by a thread or healthy and strong, The Love Dare is a journey you need to take.



Introduction to the Love Dare:

Receive this as a warning.

This forty day journey cannot
be taken lightly.

It is a challenging and often
difficult process, but an incredibly
fulfilling one. To take this dare
requires a resolute mind and a
steadfast determination.

It is not meant to be sampled or briefly
tested, and those who quit early will
forfeit the greatest benefits. If you
will commit to a day at a time for forty
days, the results could change your
life and your marriage.

Consider it a dare, from others
who have done it before you.

5 Lessons about the way we treat people...

5 Lessons about the way we treat people
Five (5) lessons about the way we treat people.1 - First Important Lesson - Cleaning LadyDuring my second month of college, our professor gave us a pop quiz. I was a conscientious student and had breezed through the questions until I read the last one:"What is the first name of the woman who cleans the school?"Surely this was some kind of joke. I had seen the cleaning woman several times. She was tall, dark-haired and in her 50s, but how would I know her name?I handed in my paper, leaving the last question blank. Just before class ended, one student asked if the last question would count toward our quiz grade."Absolutely," said the professor. "In your careers, you will meet many people. All are significant. They deserve your attention and care, even if all you do is smile and say "hello."I've never forgotten that lesson. I also learned her name was Dorothy. 2. - Second Important Lesson - Pickup in the RainOne night, at 11:30 p.m., an older African American woman was standing on the side of an Alabama highway trying to endure a lashing rain storm. Her car had broken down and she desperately needed a ride Soaking wet, she decided to flag down the next car.A young white man stopped to help her, generally unheard of in those conflict-filled 1960's. The man took her to safety, helped her get assistance and put her into a taxicab.She seemed to be in a big hurry, but wrote down his address and thanked him. Seven days went by and a knock came on the man's door. To his surprise, a giant console color TV was delivered to his home. A special note was attached.It read:"Thank you so much for assisting me on the highway the other night. The rain drenched not only my clothes, but also my spirits. Then you came along.Because of you, I was able to make it to my dying husband's bedside just before he passed away... God bless you for helping me and unselfishly serving others."Sincerely,Mrs. Nat King Cole.3 - Third Important Lesson - Always remember those who serve.In the days when an ice cream sundae cost much less, a 10-year-old boy entered a hotel coffee shop and sat at a table. A waitress put a glass of water in front of him."How much is an ice cream sundae?" he asked. "Fifty cents," replied the waitress. The little boy pulled is hand out of his pocket and studied the coins in it."Well, how much is a plain dish of ice cream?" he inquired.By now more people were waiting for a table and the waitress was growing impatient."Thirty-five cents," she brusquely replied.The little boy again counted his coins."I'll have the plain ice cream," he said.The waitress brought the ice cream, put the bill on the table and walked away The boy finished the icecream, paid the cashier and left. When the waitresscame back, she began to cry as she wiped down the table. There, placed neatly beside the empty dish, were two nickels and five pennies..You see, he couldn' t have the sundae, because he had to have enough left to leave her a tip.4 - Fourth Important Lesson. - The obstacle in Our Path.In ancient times, a King had a boulder placed on a roadway. Then he hid himself and watched to see if anyone would remove the huge rock. Some of the king's wealthiest merchants and courtiers came by and simply walked around it. Many loudly blamed the King for not keeping! the roads clear, but none did anything about getting the stone out of the way.Then a peasant came along carrying a load ofvegetables. Upon approaching the boulder, the peasant laid down his burden and tried to move the stone to the side of the road. After much pushing and straining, he finally succeeded. After the peasant picked up his load of vegetables, he noticed a purse lying in the road where the boulder had been. The purse contained many gold coins and a note from the King indicating that the gold was for theperson who removed the boulder from the roadway. The peasant learned what many of us never understand!Every obstacle presents an opportunity to improve our condition.5 - Fifth Important Lesson - Giving When it Counts...Many years ago, when I worked as a volunteer at a hospital, I got to know a little girl named Liz who was suffering from a rare &serious disease. Her only chance of recovery appeared to be a blood transfusion from her 5-year old brother, who had miraculously survived the same disease and had developed the antibodies needed to combat the illness. The doctor explained the situation to herlittle brother, and asked the little boy if he would be willing to give his blood to his sister.I saw him hesitate for only a moment before taking adeep breath and saying, "Yes I'll do it if it will save her." As the transfusion progressed, he lay in bed next to his sister and smiled, as we all did, seeing the color returning to her cheek. Then his face grew pale and his smile faded.He looked up at the doctor and asked with a trembling voice, "Will I start to die right away". Being young, the little boy had misunderstood the doctor; he thought he was going to have to give his sister all of his blood in order to save her.

10/31/2006 Happy Halloween

Six weird habits/ things about me:1. It absolutely drives me crazy (yes I know its trivial and most of you already know this about me) when people can not spell... I am not talking about Type- Os (because I make them daily) or people who have a learning problem I am talking about the people whos favorite drink is a Margaretta and they get preggnatt. Geez!2. I would rather be locked in room full of venomous snakes than have to touch 1 rat. Just typing that word makes my skin crawl. disgusting! 3. All of the cheesy things your hear people say about being a parent, usually I feel the exact same way! (ie. I think my child is beautiful, I feel I could not live with out them, nothing makes me smile like the sound of giggles, nothing breaks my heart worse than to see him hurt ..etc..)4. Again you guys that know ...knoooowwww this one was coming! It drives me CRAZY when people drive 30 mph in the fast lane, come on people, they made 2 lanes for a reason, read the sign :-) !5. I would rather throw my dirty dishes away than wash them! I am thinking I so need a house keeper! 6. I am 7 months pregnant and I dont care how cold it gets... I am still hot, do not try to convince me its my hormones or my body heat because of pregnancy, I'm calling bullshit, its just damn hot!Ok guys so there it is! I think I was on a roll and I could add about 10 more today. P.S. (And this PS. is meant for my husband too!! ) Do not talk about me because I am spoiled (so not my fault), I am sure you reaped the benefits at one time or another. Point being I know it, you know it, no need to dwell. I plan on spoiling my children to the best of my ability too! Thanks Daddy and Momma (and for those of you who dont know I LOVE my family and friends more than anything!)Thanks for reading and for the comments! Love,KarenHappy Halloween you guys! Have fun!!

Being Thankful 11/26/08

Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Good Stuff... Current mood: blessed Category: Life
This Thanksgiving I have so much to be thankful for so instead of being sad or negative here are some of the things I am thankful for:
1. Just getting to have my daddy and my mommy be here with me.
2. I am thankful for my beautiful children
3. I am thankful for a husband who puts up with me, just as I am.
4. I am thankful for our beautiful house
5. I am thankful for being employed
6. I am thankful for having a car that runs
7. I am thankful that gas prices are going down!
8. I am thankful for Mr. Clean magic erasers that remove all of the tiny fingerprints on the white walls.
9. I am thankful for Ashley for being a mother to my children while I work.
10. I am thankful for each and every one of you who took the time to read my blogs and status updates and no matter what was going on in your life took a second to send a message, comment or place a call.
11. I am thankful for tough times, it shows you who really cares and who will stand by your side.
12. I am thankful for prayers, answered and unanswered.
13. I am thankful for Diet Coke, it is yummy and bubbly.
14. I am thankful for flip flops, even in the winter.
15. I am thankful for my sister, who is also the BEST friend you could have.
16. I am thankful for friends who are more like family.
17. I am thankful for cameras, to capture every moment.
18. I am thankful for commercials, they show my children every toy in the world so they know to ask for it!
19. I am thankful for music, it is like therapy.
20. I am thankful for my blog, it allows me to express myself.
21. I am thankful for the swifter wet jet, enough said.
22. I am thankful for the internet, so I can communicate with my friends even when our lives are so busy.
23. I am thankful for Hamburger Helper, for making dinners quick and easy.
24. I am thankful for holidays, everything seems so much happier.
25. I am thankful for Christmas lights, they brighten everything up.
26. I am thankful for calendars, so I can remember to pay my bills and the other important events in life.
27. I am thankful for Alabama Power, even if they send a bill every month, they keep us warm in the winter and cool in the summer.
28. I am thankful for febreeze.. good stuff
29. I am thankful for kids that kick me out of bed.. who wouldn't rather sleep on the couch? Seriously.?
30. I am thankful of all of the lessons I have learned in life, however difficult they may have been or tears that were shed, it made me the person I am today and each mistake was a lesson learned.
31. I am thankful for fluffy blankets and dryer sheets.
32. I am thankful for Anniston Pediatrics, they have been so good to my family!
33. I am thankful for 1st State Bank in Lineville, for all they have ever done for me and taking a chance all those years ago, on a teenager with no credit.
34. I am thankful for cards and letters, everytime you read them, you remember how you felt the first time you read them.
35. I am thankful for my brother, who can fix ANYTHING!
36. I am thankful for ALL of the kids in my life, they make everything worth it!
37. Myspace.. just because
38. Old Navy
39. Laci- For all the years of craziness and bitchiness we rocked and for being there when I forgot to pay a stupid ticket, to bail me out of jail, yeah it was like 6 years ago but apparently the comedy never wore off.
40. DVR- How could I have forgot such a great advancement to technology!
*** I think my next list will be the things I like/dislike most! It has been so fun reading everyone elses list, really made me smile to read them, I am loving the blogging game, and everyone playing along***
These are just a few of the things I am thankful for.. I think I may continue to add to the list as things come to my mind! I also challenge and encourage you to make a list, post it in your blogs and show everyone what it is you are thankful for, I promise once you start it will be hard to stop and when you can't stop, you will have to realize, maybe life just isn't so bad! Good Luck! Have a Wonderful Thanksgiving!
Love,
Karen

08/18/2006

Random Thoughts !! Current mood: okay Category: Blogging
Just a second for a few of my random thoughts! (Ideas for this blog were taken from past blogs of the great blogger Ashley G)My pet peeves:Rude people... why waste your time just be nice, lifes to shortPeople driving slow in the fast lane... seriously that is why there are TWO lanes, come on not rocket science.People who can not take compliments with grace, if I compliment you I mean it from my heart, trust me I won't waste my time saying it if I don't believe it!Bad Spellers... yes I understand there are people who can not help it but HELLO in this day and age there is a certain thing called SPELL CHECK. (also there is a difference in spelling words wrong and a random type- o)For future reference:Pregnant -- Not Pergant, Pregant etc...their- Not thierYour clothes can be too loose not - too lose.. unless you misplaced them, then that's a whole other lesson. Anyway I am sure you can see where I am going with this and I am sure I misspelled something in this blog since I am fussing. My point is if you send out 100 emails a day please use spell check cause it hurts to read them.And the final on my list of Pet Peeves is bad hygiene.. come on people how much effort does it take to use deodorant, brush your teeth and bath, its not hard.He He Ok... I feel better... Whew don't you!-KarenP.S. None of the above was meant to offend or hurt anyone in any way! I love you guys!Oh yeah I get my car back tomorrow and I am soooo excited!

02/02/2007

2007-02-02
Belle- 12 days oldBelle had her first doctors appointment today and when she left the hospital she weighed 7 pounds 4 ounces and was 19 inches long. Today she weighed 7 pounds 5 ounces and was 20 inches long! And got a perfect bill of health from her doctor! I now have a new found respect for parents with more than one child. Even so much I called my parents and got a laugh out of them when I asked WHAT IN THE HECK made them want a third child.. haha! Seriously, it is a major change in so many ways. Belle as a newborn is polar opposite to Tyler as a newborn. Belle wants to be held ALL the time by her mommy and Tyler was just content to sit in his bouncy seat! Belle is sleeping pretty well, she doesnt completely sleep all night but she is close. However it seems her and Tyler just takes turns keeping me up... haha... motherhood is so not for wimps. Anyway it is all worth it when you look in the faces of those BEAUTIFUL children. I feel like the luckiest person around! Having Belle has completed our family and I have even found a new love for my husband it is so strange, I can not imagine loving anyone or anything more than I love the 3 of them now!

02/02/2007 (Belle's Birth Story)

Happy Birthday Beautiful Baby Belle!!We woke at about 7 am to pack a few last minute things and got dressed! MawMaw met us at the hospital at 9 and the plan was she would watch Tyler until the rest of the family arrived. Well Steven and I went to check in and they told us to wait in the waiting room until they were ready. When in the waiting room I met the girl who was to have the C-section before me.... hers was scheduled for 5 am so I then KNEW this was gonna be a LOOONG day. It was INSANE there were babies being born left and right. We all sat in the waiting room even took a nap as family and friends came in and out of the waiting room. Finally Finally at around 4 pm I was ready to go back... OH MY GOSH I thought I was going to lose it as the nerves set in. I was prepped for surgery and was getting my epidural when I started to cry.. the emotions and fear had hit me like a ton of bricks! When the anethesist stuck me, at the same time I sobbed so of course I had to be stuck again. After the epidural was in place I felt soooo sick, so I threw up a few times, not great when you can not even feel your stomach. After my nausea calmed down for a minute, they let some of my visitors in, Sarah, Laci and Jennifer tried to keep Belle on the monitor, while MawMaw was convinced I was dying or something.. lol! Soon enough they were ready for us in the OR, but my blood pressure dropped pretty low and I was throwing up again, I got some medicine to bring my pressure back up and I was fine until I got to the OR, when they transfered me to the table, haha... of course I was throwing up again. Wasn't too much longer and they let Steven in to be with me. A few short moments later I felt my body moving up and down on the table as my sweet daughter was not wanting to be removed from the womb, then the sweetest sound a mother ever hears... that first cry. I remember Steven looking at me with tears in his eyes and he said OH MY GOD she is BEAUTIFUL! Then I had to break down and cry. Steven with a nurse took baby Belle to see the family while my surgery was finished and I went to recovery. ISABELLA REESE WILLIAMS January 19, 2007 5:52 pm 7 lbs 12 oz. 19 inches After the first night recovery went well, I am still taking meds because of the blood pressure issue and everything else is great! She finally got to meet my mom (Nana) at 1 week old so she could not be any better!

02/02/2007

38 WeeksAhhh... so although this entry is wayyyy late, I figured I might as well finish what I started while I have a minute! At this weeks appointment we had a ultra sound to make sure Belle's lungs were completely developed which they were, however Belle (my darling) would not cooperate with the ultrasound tech and the tech was unable to get Belle to wake up, which resulted in me spending a hour or so in the hospital doing a non-stress test. Everything was fine and the C-section was scheduled for 2 days later on Friday at 9:00 am. I left so excited that THIS finally would be the week I met my angel ... then the nerves set in!

01/13/2007

2007-01-13
What a New Year!!It seems with every happy moment comes an equally or more devastating moment or at least that has been the trend thus far in the new year! I talked with my mom tonight and she told me that they attempted to insert a feeding tube twice into my grandpa both times he flat lined and they had to "bring him back". So the 2 alternatives are to either insert a tube down his nose to give him nutrition (which will not be much help because he would still be aspirating) or to just let him go home to spend the time he has left at home. So he will be released from the hospital on Monday and then I guess the days are numbered! My mom is soo upset because of course she is losing her dad and she will not be here for the birth of her grandchild, my heart broke to hear my mother cry! Needless to say this is a terribly emotional time for my family. I am going to try and throw the tiny bit of energy I have left into finishing my school work! Love-Karen

01/12/2007

37 weeks!!Today was the absolutely fastest appointment I have had thus far (well I only have one left) but we were in and out in 30 minutes and it was wonderful! So this week we learned I have another UTI (which feels wonderful ), I am retaining water so bad when you push on my leg with your finger the hole sits there and just refills itself (really it is wonderful..lol). My cervix is still completely closed (not that it matters) BUT the best news...... BELLE will be here NEXT WEEK!!! Dr. Moersch moved my appointnment up from Thursday to Wednsday... so the option of having her Thursday (the 18th) and Friday (the 19th) will be available! Sooo anyway in less than a week I will have a little girl!! I will let everyone know after the appointment on Wednsday! :-)Also my grandfather is doing no better! Thank you for all the prayers. I think at the least it will be a while before my parents come home! I told them to not worry, that I was not upset because I know they are doing what they need to! Makes me sad for many reasons. My grandparents are both needing someone with them 24 hours a day so with the help of my uncle, they are taking shifts but they are all completely worn out! Thank you everyone for checking in on us! Love,Karen

01/10/2007

Prayers for My Grandpa!With all the excitement of meeting Belle in the next week, I have some disheartening news! My grandpa has been hospitalized with pneumonia and failure to thrive. Both my parents are in Tennessee so my mom can stay with him and my dad can care for my grandmother who has to have someone assist her with daily activities! I just recieved word that the doctors are going to insert a feeding tube to help my grandpa eat! I want so bad to be with my family but with being so close to my due date it is not advised that I go that far away! My parents actually may have to miss Belle's birth since it will be in the next week but I totally understand! I hope we are able to keep Belle with us for many many years! My grandfather will probably not be so lucky, I just pray that I can make it up there to see him soon after Belle arrives!! So keep our family in your prayers!I also started back to school last Thursday (I know what you must be thinking) but all of my classes are online, so why not accomplish something while I am staying home with the babies!?!? I am trying my hardest to get all the classes up to date and far enough ahead so I will not have to worry with them until I come home with my precious Belle! (Uhm yeah I guess you can say I am determined to graduate as soon as possible...)Love,Karen

01/07/2007

Baby Shower!Well about the only word that comes to mind is WOW! I was so overwhelmed with the generosity of my family and friends! I do not think I will have to buy a thing for a year or so! Everything went wonderful, a little rushed BUT wonderful! Everything was pink, pink, pink and disney princess! I am still in awe over all the wonderful things Belle got at the shower! To my friends and family, thank you so much for everything you have done! Love, Karen

01/06/2007

Pineapple Juice... GRRRRSo last night I was sooo thirsty so I opened up a big can of pineapple juice and drank most it! Well less than an hour later OMG terrible pains, I mean I was crying and I thought this was it! I even called the hospital and they pretty much confirmed what I thought that I was having contractions and to start timing them! Well after about 3 hours of this I started to feel better but I was thirsty so guess what I drank more pineapple juice ... same story less than hour I am in terrible pain so I googled pineapple juice and pregnancy and this is what I found:Pineapple JuiceUsage: There is an old wives' tale floating around that pineapple juice will help a fertilized egg implant. However, pineapple juice is not recommended for use in TTC and/or pregnancy. In large doses, it can cause uterine contractions and bring on spontaneous abortions (miscarriage).Recommended Dosage: Drink only in small quantities, if at all.Food Sources: Pineapples.Side Effects: Large doses may cause uterine contractions, miscarriage, vomiting, diarrhea, skin rash, very heavy menstrual periods. Unripe pineapple is poisonous, causing excessive diarrhea.Gahh don't I feel stupid! Out of all the labor starters and me being scared to try any I actually had never heard of this one BUT I will probably NEVER EVER drink pineapple juice again! Thanks for checking out my rant! Just wanted to inform everyone! Now I have to get ready for my shower since I wasted my entire night giving MYSELF contractions... gahh Karen! -Karen

01/05/2007

36 Week Check-UpThings went well this week at the doctor! Belle's little heart was beating so strong and fast! I lost another 2 pounds which is fine I still have plenty to spare! I have been pretty sick this morning, nausea, diarhea, but I think it's mainly nerves. Everything else was pretty normal! So on to the good stuff.. haha... the C-section. The plan is I will have next week appointment (37 weeks) and the next appointment (38 weeks) we will do another sonogram (which I am loving by the way.... all the sonograms). Then if the sonogram shows that Belle is maturing fine we will pick the C-section day then! Yeahhh! So when she asks me the date I am going to say when is the soonest we can go... lol! I just can not wait to see the angel, Belle! My Shower is tommorrow and I am so excited and soooo very nervous at the same time! My anxiety is getting the better of me! Ahhh I'm sure everything will work out fine! Till next time (probably tommorrow)Love,Karen

12/28/2006

Week 35 Check Up!!Wow only 3 more weeks! I am starting to get very nervous now! Everything went well at the appointment. Belle measured at a little over 6 pounds so she may be a big girl come delievery day! I lost a pound which the doctor said was very unusual being this far in pregnancy and it being the holidays. I had a good bit of swelling but nothing major and I was having contractions while the doctor was examining me so she decided to do a pelvic exam to make sure I was not dialating with the contractions and my cervics was completely closed so no big deal just a little uncomfortable! Hope to find out more next week! Next appointment is next Thursday at 3:45 and my shower is next Saturday evening which I have to admit has me sooo nervous! It freaks me out a little being the reason everyone is coming out and then of course there is the "what if no one comes"... ahh I just have issues I suppose! Anyway I hope everyone has a wonderful and blessed week! Happy New Year! Love,Karen

12/26/2006

2006-12-26
~CHRISTMAS~Merry Christmas everyone!! This years Christmas was one of the most memorable Christmas' ever! This was the first year Tyler understood about getting presents and watching him open them and get excited was worth more money than in all the world! Belle recieved presents as if she were already here! Both Tyler and Belle got new bedding and the things to do themes in their room, Tyler is Disney's "Cars" and Belle's is "Disney Princesses" and everything was so beautiful, if I were to list everything each child recieved I would be typing all night, I think it's fair to say Tyler and Belle are very loved! We had Christmas along with my sister's birthday on Christmas Eve, and Christmas with Steven's family Christmas day! Needless to say the whole bunch of us is pooped! This year truly was yet another blessing! I hope everyone's Christmas was wonderful and magical! Love,Karen

12/21/2006

Weeks 33 and 34Well I definatly think reality has set in on the fact that it will not be long until I get to hold my baby girl, I am so nervous! Also the "joys" of pregnancy are coming at a steady pace as well! Week 33- The swelling begins! I think I am swelled up pretty bad until my sister and husband tell me that I look good now, that when I was pregnant with Tyler I swelled up like a Marshmallow man... wow, this probably would have hurt my feelings under any other circumstances but I had to laugh and think well, at least I don't look "THAT BAD" again.. hehe! We had the annual Christmas Party at my sister in laws and had an amazing time! The kids got so excited when Santa showed up with gifts for each of the 30 (thirty) children! Also this week I had to go into the doctor and was diagnosed with a UTI and bladder infection (so not fun)! Everything is much better now in that department thanks to some antibiotics and tons of water!! Week 34- Today was my last 2 week appointment and I will now be seeing Dr. Moersch on a weekly basis! Blood Pressure and Urine were good, I gained a whooping 1 lb (I'm so proud) Bringing my total gained during pregnancy to 9 pounds! Thank goodness I had plenty of weight to spare so I am working off weight and gaining baby! The baby also measured big so she will probably be close to the size of her brother! I gat more antibiotics and cough medicine for my "flu-like" symptoms and hopefully I will have my voice back soon, for those of you who have not heard me... I sound pretty sad! Belle is moving so much and growing so well I really can not complain! What more could I ask for than a perfectly healthy baby!

12/06/2006

32 week checkup!Hi I just got back from my 32 week checkup! Belle looked wonderful! Her heartrate was 147 and she just looked beautiful! She was growing right on track! She had 4 fingers in her mouth and yawned the whole time, apparently we were disturbing her nap... hehe! I added her new picture to the album! I did not get a date set for the section, it was a mad house at the doctors office! We were there for 3 hours and I think maybe we will decide all that next time (maybe..)! But I go back in 2 weeks! But I am super excited I got to see my angel again!Love, KarenPS.. she is still a girl! We checked again to make sure! hehe!

11/30/2006

Just an update!!I know it has been a couple of weeks since I updated the holidays are so busy! Thanksgiving was wonderful! We were able to make it to eat with both sides of the family! We ate lunch at my wonderful sister in law Angie's and left from there to eat at my grandmothers! Yeah nobody wanted anymore thanksgiving food! I am getting more and more anxious everyday to see this sweet baby girl! I am not at all prepared yet but I am so anxious! She moves all the time and I love to see her push out on my belly! Part of me is kinda still nervous when we have the sonogram next friday that she will be a he... that would totally be my luck! But that would be fine for me, then it would just be me and my boys, but I am really loving shopping for a girl! I have been getting more and more tired everyday, which is not a great thing with Tyler but he is doing so well dealing with everything! I know he will be a wonderful big brother!Also about the baby shower I know the date was set for December 6th-ish but because of technical difficulites the date has changed (tentatively) to the first Saturday, January 6th! I know that is cutting it pretty close but I just hope everything works out! I just didnt want anyone to think they were left out or didnt get and invite or anything of that sort!I finished classes for this semester and all I lack is to take one test next monday and then I will be finished!! (ha for this semester anyway)Hope everyone is doing great! Love, Karen

11/17/2006

29 week check up!My appointment was rather uneventful, except the doctor had an emergency and had to go to the hospital so things got way backed up, I know it sounds bad but there were pregnant women sitting in the floors and standing, I was in the floor sorry but we had to wait 2 hours and I could not stand to stand there any longer. But anyway it was not the wait that bothered me because my doctor is AWESOME and she just goes the extra mile, like to rush to the hospital if one of her patients are in trouble instead of waiting for whoever is on call. (and I am happy to know she would do the same for me) But what aggravated me was there were several men there, letting these pregnant ladies stand and sit where they could. I was wondering what happened to the days when a man would give up his seat for a lady much less a pregnant woman. Grrr that just erked me! But Belle is fine her heart rate is good and I am exactly 29 weeks! This was my last 4 week appointment! I go back on December 8th (I think... its 3 weeks on a Friday) anyway to get a sonogram to see that she is developing along enough to schedule the C-section. So good report from the doctor... I gained 7 freaking pounds though! geez! I was so happy cause all I had gained was 1 pound this whole time because I was losing weight on me and gaining baby... oh well as long as my sweet Belle is OK, I dont care! Hope everyone is having a great day!Love,Karen

11/13/2006

10 more weeks!!!Ha! Since I have to have a C-section I get to cheat a little bit so I am having the baby at 38 weeks instead of whenever she decides to come so.. yeah.. almost there! I have my last 4 week appointment on Thursday morning and on Thurday night I have my last class for pre-student teaching and turn in my notebook.. YEAH! That means after next semester only math and a science and I will be in teacher inservice! Heck yes! The end seems sooo far away somedays it seems like I am a hamster in one of those wheels.. running and running and not getting anywhere... ahh it will be so worth it in the end and will be worth it for my babies!! :-) Enough about me let's talk about Belle! Oh my gosh this baby is soooo active, I mean if I would have been pregnant with her first I would have been at the hospital everyday with Tyler thinking he didn't move enough! I mean she gets so active it literally makes my stomach queezy from the flips! Steven SAW her move for the first time this morning, I was sitting in the chair and Belle did a flip/cartwheel/something and you could see my belly move like something was possed in there.. he was like I SAW THAT..lol! So sweet! Keep the prayers going up cause too many is never enough!Love,Karen

11/07/2006

Just give me 5 more minutes.... Of SLEEP!Oh my gosh! Tyler has gotten into the habit of getting up at crazy hours (I guess this is my payback for him sleeping all night as a baby)! So last night he woke up at 2:30.... would not go back to sleep until 6:30 oh yeah... so I thought well if I make him some breakfast he will get full and sleepy so I made pancakes and sausage and eggs and my plan worked he practically fell asleep where he sat! I was sure he would sleep late for sure.. no way! He heard his dad come in the door at 8 am.. and he is wide eyed and ready to play, Of course Steven was ready for bed after working all night.. I won't lie its all wearing me OUT! But I always tell myself.. maybe tonight... tonight will be good! Hehe.. if its not one its the other, I sware Belle can bruise me from the inside out! She is going to have to take Karate! Sad thing is I wouldn't want it any other way... I like to know they need me (soo cheesy right!) Any way I am signing up for classes for next semester and I finished my observations and I am just in the process of typing all 500 pages up.. (Ok I exagerated )! I hope everyone has a wonderful day! Love,Karen

11/03/2006

My Tyler MontageI realized that I "lost" my camcorder and with it were all the tapes of my son growing up, needless to say I am devastated! I have been so upset about it! But admist my hormonal breakdown I made a montage/ video of his life to this point to put on DVD! Anyway I wanted to share it so here is the link! I hope everyone takes a chance to view it because I am very excited about it! Be sure to leave me sweet comments in my guestbook (they always make my day!) I can't wait for Belle to get here so I can make a zillion pictures of her too! Love,KarenJust Copy and paste the link: http://www.onetruemedia.com/shared?p=16be61240c2e7dd24865bb&skin_id=0&utm_source=otm&utm_medium=text_url

10/31/2006

Happy Halloween!We took Tyler trick-or-treating tonight and he had fun with the exception of some of the masks scaring him! Steven and I talked about how next halloween we will have a beautiful baby girl to share it with! Belle is very very active! She constantly kicks which I love because that way I know she is alright! I am now getting sooo anxious! We are down to like 11 weeks, since she will be taken 2 weeks before her due date! So much still to do! Love,Karen

10/30/2006

Glucose Tolerance TestingI went in for my GTT last wednsday to test for gestational diabetes! All I can say is YUCK! The stuff you have to drink is absolutely disgusting! But I did not throw up which is a plus I guess! I havent heard anything about the results so I am guessing that maybe in this case no news is good news! Guess I won't know until my next appointment... which by the way will be my last 4 week appointment, I will then go every 3 weeks, then every 2 weeks and then every week until "the day"! I only have 1 more appointment until my next sonogram and I will get to see my angel once again! I can not wait to hold her! Then maybe we can finally set the C-section date! Everything else is fine! Just normal everyday stuff! Tommorrow is Halloween and I can't wait to take Tyler Trick-or-Treating!! Love,Karen

10/26/2006

Week 26 Check-UPNot much new to report! I was disappointed because I did not get a sonogram. My doctor is going to do the next one at 32 weeks to check on how the baby is developing because my C-section is planned for 2 weeks before my due date, which will put it somewhere around January 19th! Everything looked very good, Belle was laying from right under my ribs and stretched out all the way to my hip.. sounds like she maybe tall..lol, which makes me the minority in this household! Her heartrate was strong and excellent. As far for me all my tests came back perfect..yeah.. my weight gain.. lost some weight.. gained some baby so my total weight gain for month 6 was (drumroll......) 1 pound! I was like wow nows a fine time to control the weight... I guess all the food I have been eating is going straight to the baby cause trust me.. I am eating alot! Hehe! But overall I was just happy to recieve such positive reports! On another note I get to take my blood glucose test next week.. big whoopee (gag)!

10/10/2006

Saturday, my sister, Tyler and I went to babypalooza and let me just begin by saying I have NEVER seen so may pregnant ladies in my LIFE!! But it was wonderful, got lots of information and some freebies. After that excitement I took Tyler to storytime at Books-A-Million and he got to meet Clifford the big red dog! I never knew how big of a celebrity he was until I saw him swarmed by 2 year olds! But I am so glad he had a great time! The baby is moving around more and more everyday or should I say night... right now she is doing cartwheels! I can NOT wait until next wednsday when I can see her again! I have to admit I am kind of nervous that maybe she isn't a girl.. I don't know, but then too I think I am paranoid! I am also going to ask about what date her delivery will be scheduled so everyone can plan ahead. I guess that is the upside to a planned C-section! The down side will come in the 2 weeks after the baby arrives! I am just soooo anxious to meet her. And I am sooo excited about my shower! I just have TONS of emotions going through me! But this is my absolute favorite time of year with the weather getting cooler and all the holiday's.. makes me happy! I hope everyone is having a great week!Love,Karen

10/06/2006

It's in my head!One of the side effects of pregnancy are crazy dreams! Last night I had the most terrifying dream I have ever had in my life! I dreamed someone kidnapped Tyler, it was terrible I woke up scared and crying, heart beating fast, that dream was too real for me to handle! I was giving details to Steven about the truck they were in and everything! So of course I woke up and went to check on him and had to pick him up! And I thought to myself if anything ever happened to him I do not think my heart would beat again. He tries my patience day after day but I love him more every second. As for my little Belle, I love her already, I know what times she sleeps and what times she likes to move around and I truely feel these children are my reason for getting up every morning, for making it through hard times, for going to school. I NEVER knew love until I became a mother! (Yep another side effect of pregnancy.. these freaking hormones...as if I was not emotional enough before). I have been having , headaches and dizzy spells lately but nothing major, but I am going to talk to the doctor about it at my appointment on the 19th! I hope everyone has a great weekend! Love,Karen

10/02/2006 (Tyler's Birth story)

Tyler's Birth Story!!So I decided that since I did not have a journal when I was pregnant with Tyler that I would take a minute and tell his story! Tyler's dad and I had been dating for a while when we discovered.. oh my we are going to be parents! The hardest part was telling my parents, but they took it remarkably well and supported me from day one! I continued to work full time up until I was 37 weeks. It was a pretty uneventful pregnancy, hardley any morning sickness, it was great. So I was 39 weeks pregnant when I woke up one morning and just felt like crap.. but I thought what else is new. I drug around for most of the day but I had this terrible pain in the small of my back! It just continued to get worse so at about dark I could not stand it anymore so I decided to go to the hospital. Steven was a wreck he did not know what to think and all I knew was that I hurt! They tried to make me lay on my back and I simply could not stand it.. I would never have went against doctors orders but I remember begging them to please not make me lay on my back. It wasn't but a few minutes later till they came in everyone was rushing around they told Steven to change clothes that they had to get the baby out NOW! Emergency C-section.. Oh boy was that no fun! The anesthesiolgist came in and got the spinal in place and he was pushing the meds as we went down the hall... I was soo sick throwing up and I could not concentrate on anything. I remember they kept giving me drugs to help keep me from vomitting but it took a minute.. now that is a weird feeling to throw up and not be able to feel your body...! So within the next minutes they had the baby out and Tyler James Causey Williams was introduced to the world at 2:07 am on July 18th. He weighed in at 9 lbs 3 oz and was 21 1/2 inches long. But I did not get to hold him for 2 more days because he had to be on IVs and under and oxygen hood!, because little did we know the reason why I was hurting was they removed a cyst the size of a man's fist from my ovary and at the same time Tyler was going into fetal distress from lack of oxygen because he tied his cord in a knot and was pulling it when he moved. So we saved each other. His father and I are now married and expecting out second child. I knew I had to marry him when I went on vacation with a "friend" of mine and she told me of all the terrible things her babies father did daily, we actually had to come home early because her babies father got drunk and had a wreck with the children in the car. So that event alone made me realize how lucky I was! I no longer have contact with that "friend" but my son has the best daddy in the world and for that I am greatful! We all have our tough times and trials but sometimes if we look at the bigger picture we realize it could be MUCH worse! Hope you enjoyed! Love,Karen

09/30/2006

Plans/Dreams for Nursery!Well today I decided on a theme for the babies room! I think that I am gonna do it in "The Disney Princesses", it makes me so excited, plus it is soo easy to find cute stuff to match! So I made added to my Wal-Mart baby registry all of the disney princess items I liked... Oh my gosh they had so much! So hopefully we will move into a new house soon, get every bill caught up and I can focus on making a beautiful baby princess room!! But of course we can not leave out sweet Tyler. So this year for Christmas I am gonna (hopefully) make him a new room, of course with the help of family.. I promise I will not try to do it myself.. this time! I am gonna do his in Cars (from the disney movie) and of course Wal-Mart has tons of Cars things for a boys room.. I am sooo excited! So I also made Tyler a "Santa Wish List" at Wal-Mart because let me just tell you all I will forget everything I have planned and then be disapointed, so now I have my ideas stored..lol! I hope everything works out!Love,Karen

09/30/2006

Stupid Hormones!!The one thing I will not miss about being pregnant definately has to be the hormones! Now that the morning sickness is gone and things are getting CLOSER to normal around here, these hormones came to take me over! I mean even the smallest things make me cry or make me mad.. It is an emotional roller coaster! But I know that it is all for a greater cause and in a few months I will look back on all this and sigh and be glad its over..LOL just kidding ya'll! I only have to observe one more day and I will be through with that... that makes me happy .... and of course sad at the same time because I enjoy going to the school! I hope everyone is having a great day and a wonderful weekend!Love,Karen

09/22/2006

Unbelievable!As unreal as it seems to say it, as bad as things have ever been that is almost how good they are now! It is surreal! I am enjoying my observations for student teaching, I know definately 2nd grade is for me! Right now I am at a school in Talladega County, which is wonderful, not to mention my mom teaches right down the hall from where I am! I am just overwhelmed with the love and support everyone has shown! I appreciate everyone in my life right now! Tyler is doing great... aside from the terrible 2s which most of the time its hard to keep from laughing because he acts soo stubborn just like his mother. I hope everyone is having a great day! I am (as Jennifer put it) on a PINK cloud nine! So excited!! Let's go shopping!! Love,Karen

09/20/2006

I went for my sonogram today and finally it was confirmed we are having a little girl and everything looked perfectly healthy. So everyone get ready to meet Isabella Reese Williams!!! We discussed the possiblilty that I may have to have another C-section so we decided to wait until closer to time. But the baby and everything looked fine her heart rate was 149 and strong she was the most precious thing I have ever seen aside from Tyler. It was amazing and I can not wait to hold her. Before I was dead set on not wanting another C-section but after seeing my angel, I know I will do WHATEVER It takes! Well that is all I have for now! I hope everyone is having a blessed week!Love,Karen

09/11/2006

Baby Kicks!Yes that's right! I think I may have an active one here! But nothing makes me happier than to feel that precious movement and know "That is my angel". Since today is September 11th, I can't even watch TV because it makes me boo-hoo to see all those people suffer... a little hormones mixed with sensitivity (whoa)! School to this point has been about average, not too much to report so far! I start my observations on Thurday so I am kind of nervous about that LOL!, but on the other hand it feels wonderful to have more school behind me. Tyler is getting more interested in the baby and he asks to kiss the baby which just thrills me. Just a few more days and I will know if this baby is a boy or a girl! I can't wait! It's so hectic, yet fullfilling with everything that is going on!