My daddy update 4 Current mood: numb Category: Life
I visited him today, he looked so weak and nervous, we were only able to stay a few minutes, because he was hurting and having people there was making him more nervous. He won't eat anything and his blood pressure has been dropping they may have to give him a blood transfusion tonight to help some of the problems. I hate so much to see him like this and in pain. They were able to get him to walk a little today, he walked down the hall, so that is good. I can not shake this sick feeling in my stomach, I just want everything to go back to normal and my daddy to be fine, but it is looking like in reality, that may not happen. I know everyday will be a struggle, but everyday will always be a blessing. It's just so hard for this to sink in, like how can this be real? This was not even a worry last week and this week, in a week alone, our lives have been turn upside down. I am not even sure HOW to feel, there are just so many emotions. The only thing I am sure of is I am not ready to lose him and I will do ANYTHING to make things better for him.

Finally Good News Category: Life
Today was much brighter. Much to the surprise of everyone who saw my daddy yesterday, this morning when he woke up, his appetite returned, he ate his breakfast and his lunch, his blood pressure stabilized, when meant no transfusion, he also had his drains removed and walked alot more. The best part was, since he was doing so well today, they let him go home late tonight to rest, since he had been through so much. I couldn't be happier! He will rest and take medications for 3 weeks, then return to the cancer center to schedule chemo and radiation. This whole ordeal has been an unbelieveable roller coaster, of ups and downs, going from scared to worried, to mad, to devastated, to happy about every positive thing happening! All I know is this: He was not expected to make it through surgery- HE DID, He was expected to have a transfusion- HE DIDN'T, He was thought to need to be in the hospital for a while to recover- HE ISN'T, Now I can't help but think that maybe just maybe he can beat this thing even if the doctors don't think he can, after all he has surpassed all of their expecatations this far. He is far from out of the woods, he is still very sick, weak and in pain and I do know the prognoses is still very grim, but I still have the hope! I can not express the thanks I have for my friends and people in my life who stepped up and showed concern for me and my family in this terrible time. I will continue to update through my blogs and I hope that each one will reveal another step towards remission, the doctors say that is not a likely outcome, but we will see!
Love,
Karen