It Can't Rain Forever.

In the week since I have last blogged, so much has changed yet, everything is pretty much the same. MawMaw is still in the hospital, but she is out of ICU. She has a private room on a regular unit and she should be transfered to a local hospital Monday. However she has been so confused and it is so heartbreaking. I didn't let her see me cry though, I will always be strong in front of them until I break. I decorated her room with as many pictures as I could and the results were amazing. She hugged me as we left and told me in my ear, I would never know how much she loved me and that I always knew how to fix things and make them better and I assured her she would never know how much I loved her. Her mind seems to come and go, but is better know than a few days ago, I will continue to try and keep her mind sharp as often as I can, I will not give up on her, she would never give up on me. I'm taking the kids to see her tommorrow, I know she will love that.

My dad has started to feel the effects of chemo and has started to feel sick. Not that having cancer and going through chemo and radiation and having your mother sick in the hospital... I can not imagine what he is going through. He is so tough and so selfless, he and my mother have been driving over 300 miles a day, to make it to his radiation, leave there drive to B'ham to be with MawMaw then all the way back home.. everyday. My daddy and my MawMaw are 2 of the most important people in my life, and mean the world to me, they were always there for me, always there when I needed anything, always on my side, they both are 2 of the kindest, kindest hearted, precious people and it is painful to see them unwell. Both are terminal, both are under the care of my mother, who is being quite the trooper, taking care of everyone.

My husband is still waiting on his employer to call him back to work, but looking for other employment in the meantime. However it is a stressful situation but we will work it out.

People have asked me how I handle all of this stress plus the daily stress of work and kids. It is both the easiest and hardest few months I have faced, It is hard seeing people you love hurting, but my family means everything to me so the easiest decision is to do whatever it takes to make things better.

We are excited for the end of the month, when we have a trip to Gatlinburg planned. I believe our family deserves that. It will be a much needed vacation.

We also have Belle's party coming up next weeked and that should be lots of fun. Until next time..

Love,
Karen